No words

I'm going to do kind of a sappy post because reasons. Sure, I could talk about how my family was out here for my White Coat Ceremony, and how it was good to see them and all... it was good, really! But that isn't what I want to dwell on. Yes, clinics have started and I'm getting less sleep than ever before, but actually not hating my life *quite* yet.
I did want to write out my feelings about this wonderfully amazing woman I've been able to share my life with for about the past month. My title of 'No words' seems to adequately describe what happens when I am with her, and I usually lose out to random babble. It's hard to form a coherent sentence when she's around (what we like to call the brain goes to mush... or polioencephalomalacia?) As much as I wanted to take things a little slow with this new relationship, it has been incredibly hard to do so (it hasn't just been my wanting to move forward with things, though I have prompted them).
I do not have a lot of previous 'dating' history, and I've had quite a few single dates that have ended up as nothing. I know what I'm looking for in another woman. It's very difficult to write out what exactly that is, but this amazing woman I found seems to fit that.
She's intelligent (finishing up her bachelors in December... not that it matters if she goes to college or not, but intelligence is a sexy, sexy thing). Her knowledge on wines/alcohol astound me (this goes back to her job she currently has. Adventurous (VERY much so... she's done a lot of things with her life- was in the military for 6 years, hikes/camps, is even going to hike the entire Appalachian trail starting in the spring. Plays roller derby, or at least is getting back into it.. She wants to go out and do things). She's patient, boy is she patient. Anyone who can put up with my vet school schedule alone deserves a medal. She's so sweet about it, too. Trying to re-arrange her work schedule just for me, even though I tell her not to. I don't have a flexible schedule at all, so it is kind of up to her on that end (IF she wants to, not on my account). We get together as often as we can between both of our schedules. She is often spending the night at my house (at least twice a week, I'd say) and it is so kind of her to do that. I have a hard time leaving my boys for someone else to watch them. She has a dog of her own, but lives with her mom and can have her keep an eye on him when she's over here.
I've already mentioned how kind and sweet she is before, but I'll do it again. She's always keeping me in line with what I should be doing (studying, sleeping) but I make my own conscious choices to be awake later or skip studying for something just to be with her. I'd say that's certainly worth it.
Comfort- this is very important; I can hardly believe it has only been a month with this girl. We are so super comfortable with one another in terms of what we talk about and in terms of each others body.  Last, I have to mention how incredibly beautiful she is; I guess I never would've thought someone like her would've even looked twice at me. It's been a process for me to try to get over (and I'm still trying some days) to say 'yes, this is really a thing, we are actually a couple...' I just never thought I would be so lucky as to find someone who can make me feel things the say she does, who I get along with as though we've been friends for years.
I found out the other evening that she keeps a journal to write in about me (in purple writing, apparently) since it is my favorite color. It has kind of prompted me to write this. She told me only after I had said 'I love you' for the first time (again, one of those things in which may be considered moving fast, but it just felt right and I can't help what I feel). Maybe someday I'll get to read said journal (apparently). But I'm just happy for now to have found this amazing woman and be with her.
I made a tumblr post the other day about never understanding about soulmates, and now I think I might be getting an understanding of that... again very hard to put into words, but this is something incredibly special and I'm not planning on letting her go.

Happy :)

If you read my last post, a few weeks ago I was having a real shitty weekend. Things have gotten significantly better since then (and also not, but I'll explain).
Let me talk about the not first...
- Finals are next week, so I'm not excited for that AT ALL
- SO much shit to do right now
- Clinics have snuck up on me and I'm not ready
- Roomie drama with her boyfriend (totally not cool stuff, I hate it)

Now that that's out of the way, I would like to talk about the main reason why things are way better at the moment. I actually have met someone super amazing and she's starting to steal my heart. This is very different and oh so much better than my previous relationship... She's really something special. We are trying not to rush into things and go as slow as we are able... but I have a feeling like this is the person I'm meant to be with. She's just amazing, wonderful, beautiful, kind, sweet, adorable... all the things. We've had... 3 dates so far and all have been equally fantastic. I'll see her again tomorrow and we've both been counting down the days. She even decided to come to my White Coat ceremony and meet *pretty much* my entire family next weekend despite us not officially dating. That just says a lot right there (I tried my best not to sway her decision and told her to think about it on her own). I wouldn't have invited her if I didn't think this has the potential to develop into a relationship.
Anyway, I just wanted to share the good news... Oh and White Coat is next Sunday (whaaaa!?) Should be very interesting with my entire family plus my kinda-girlfriend (did I just say that? Yes)