Well, we are finally in a break from exams... mostly. I have one tomorrow (and a quiz I have to take today sometime) and a few quizzes next week. No big deal with any of these... after that, shit hits the fan again.
But, I'm mainly writing today just because these past few days I have just been feeling a bit down. Sad, because everyone is counting down until thanksgiving break and getting to see their family, but not me, as far as I know. I'd love to fly home for a few days; its about $300-350 for a round trip ticket- not bad at all. But, I'm not sure if I want to do that seeing as I just spent a lot going to the wedding. I guess the big thing is that I really really miss my family (ie, mom). We are so so close and it is really hard being so far away, even if a lot of the time, I wouldn't be able to go home to see her if I was closer, anyway. I talk to her multiple times a day, but still, it doesn't get any easier.
I also want to bring up the topic with her of possibly getting another dog. I would love to bring one home- I have no hesitation with it, but I know my mom does with me staying with her over Christmas break, and maybe some summers. I think Beamer would really be a lot happier with a playmate out here, too. I would LOVE to get a puppy, but I know that is not feasible right now, especially since the next puppy I want to get would be a show dog (conformation). I do not have the time (or money) right now to do that. So, I was thinking of adopting an older dog. Maybe 2-5 years old... I just need to run the idea past mom, but I don't think she will go for it. Though, when I told her I was going to get a puppy (Beamer boy) she was totally opposed to the idea and now she is in love with him. So, it might just happen anyway... I just hate going against her on things like this.
Also, I feel like I'm in a bit of a rut with the roomies. I just don't feel like I am fitting in as I did a few months ago. I know I'm pretty different from most people, which I'm alright with. I like my peace and quiet and being by myself. I just hate it when things cause trouble or I have to confront them about things. Lately, it has been a cleaning issue because I have been the only one trying to clean the house, and it is frustrating. I guess we all have different expectations on how things should look, and I like them to look neat and tidy to the best of my ability (because, I know I don't have time to clean as much as I'd like to). Also, me feeling like I am buying a lot more food and they are eating my stash, so I told them I am going to be buying my own stuff, basically, from now on. So, I don't know- again, I don't feel like I am fitting in with them to the point of last night, I was actually going through and looking at potential other places to live for next year. Ideally, I'd love to live on my own and by myself, but it is just SO much more expensive, I feel like it is not economically feasible with my loan money. Plus, it is nice to have roomies to let the dogs out if I have to stay late for something or to ask questions about classes, etc. So, I have no idea what I'm going to do... maybe try to find another person to live with (I know one of my friends wants to move out of where she is now). I just hesitate because things go alright for a few months and then you get to a point of you can't stand living with them anymore.
Okay, I guess that is enough ranting for now. I really need to get my butt in gear and start studying since I took a few days break and did basically nothing. Now I have an impending quiz and exam.
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