Well, I think I am finally ready to admit this in a somewhat public way. I've already talked to all my wives about it, but other than that, no one else really knows. I've come to the conclusion that I like women- thus far I am going to call myself a bisexual, but who knows what the future holds. Sexuality can be ever changing. This really isn't a new thought to me, I've been questioning myself ever since I started college, though only in the past year or so have I realized the truth. Sometimes the hardest person to admit something to is yourself.

I have no problem with my sexuality, I have always supported the LGBTQ community as well as equal rights. It feels a bit odd to now be apart of them, but, they are a great community and will give any support I may need. One of my friends has always been involved with them and has helped me through a lot of what I've been going through. Just talking to her and getting my feelings out throughout the past few years has been helpful to me. She's always been one I can talk about things with, so I am glad to have friends like her.

Last spring, I realized that I had a crush on one of my best friends. It took me a while to talk to her about it, but I am glad I did. She is super supportive, and although she doesn't feel the same way, she is still one of my best friends. It took me some more thinking and digging inside myself and almost a year's time to pass for me to realize that this is who I truly am and for me to get enough courage to tell my other two best friends. Both have been amazing as well, I expected no less, and one even guessed it anyway.

I'm still trying to get the courage up to tell my mom and sisters, though I know that they won't have any issues with it and be supportive of me. It is just swallowing my pride and saying it that is the hard part. I think I am going to wait until after I move to tell them; it will be easier that way- not being in person.

I've also started talking with an amazing girl who lives out in Columbia, Missouri! I can't wait to actually meet her in July when I move out there. She has been awesome to talk with so far and we are getting along very well. I'm hoping this can turn into something!

In other news, I ordered a new laptop and it was supposed to be delivered today, but I didn't get home in time to catch the UPS guy. It should be here tomorrow, I'm hoping! Plus my grooming table got here today and my dryer should be here tomorrow for Beamer boy! I just want this week to be over, work has been hell and I have a huge bruise to prove it.